I’ve used my writing over the last several years as a way to get my emotions out and “get out of my head”. There for quite awhile things were rolling pretty smoothly. Life had gotten to a point where it was flowing again. I feel the blog I originally started as a way to vent my pain from a very bitter divorce and court battle has now reached a more broad topic of life in general. What do I hope to accomplish? Well, it was never about offering advise but to let others know that there are people out here that might be experiencing something similar and there is comfort in knowing your not alone…..
My new experience that has me treading water in the deep end of the pool is cancer. Not mine but my wife’s. You see last year we fought and won a battle with kidney cancer. This year we were handed the “mass on your spine”. Where it’s located is very rare and generally only because it has metastasized from a previous cancer, and has a very high percentage of being malignant, being hard to kill, return rate, and terminal. How do you even start to process all of this?
My days since the news has been filled with, denial, bouts of spontaneous crying, thoughts of living my life without my partner and best friend, trying convince myself that there aren’t any results one way or the other yet……the later is what I try to cling to. Which I must say is the equivalent to rock climbing. Finger tips and toes on the smallest of ledges.
I don’t know where is path is going to lead but, know that I am on it too.
you are not alone………